Memories of a Real-Life Girl
Posted: Wed Feb 20, 2008 4:12 am
I cannot believe this. Why I am here? What does this have to do with finding my true self? I never existed in this world. Also why does it feel that I have no body and just watching?
What Suzaku was about to realize that she has no body to control here but only a watcher. She was feeling like a person who was watching TV about someone’s life through their eyes. This lack of control was annoying to Suzaku as she finds being unable to control her movements quite repulsive. For now, she decided to observe her current surroundings but with no control with the “camera”, she could not get an easy look around.
It appears that the room she was in is a bedroom. Her “carrier” was on a bed just appear to waken up. There was a huge dresser directly in front of the bed. From the source of sunlight to the left of the dresser, Suzaku deduce that there were windows on that side which it was immediately confirm as her viewpoint veered towards the windows. The weather on the other side of the windows was a clear sunny day. There were a bunch of small houses with skyscrapers off in the distance.
For Suzaku, she has never seen a skyscraper as the largest building that she could compare it to was a castle. The bird now fully realized that she was in the other world somehow but with no control of the body that she was currently possessing. The girl walked to a door and opened it to reveal a closet. She proceeded to choose a red t-shirt and lay it on the bed. Then she went to the dresser and pulled out some jeans and underwear. She put them on the bed like the shirt before walking out of the bedroom.
There was a short hallway that had a set of stairs on the right and a door at the end of it. The girl went to the door at the end of the hallway and opened the closed door. The room behind the door was a bathroom which she proceed to take a shower, brush her teeth, did her hair, and makeup before heading back to the bedroom to get dressed. After the girl got dressed, she looked into a mirror. Suzaku finally saw the girl that she has been seeing her perspective from. The girl was about 5’7”, slender build, long dark hair, and with blue eyes.
After looking herself in the mirror for a moment, the girl once again exits the bedroom and walks down the stairs. At the bottom of the stairs, there was a small kitchen on her right and a living room with a TV and a small desk for her computer. The living room also contained the entrance to the girl’s apartment. The girl went into the kitchen and opens the refrigerator. She takes out a carton of orange juice and sets on the counter. Then she opens a cupboard and takes a glass and a plate from it. The girl opens another cupboard and takes out two bagels. She places the bagels into a toaster and pours some orange juice while the toaster is cooking the bagels.
Once the bagels were toasted, the girl placed them on the plate. She carried both the plate and glass of orange juice to the living room where she put them down on a table. The table had a remote on it which she grabbed and sat down on a couch. She was about to turn on the TV when a doorbell rang. The girl put the remote back onto the table and went to the door to answer it. She walked to the door and asks who it was. A soft voice came through the door.
“It’s Natsume.”
Suzaku felt that the girl seems confused by this Natsume girl but could not understand why it has to with her mission. For now, she continued to focus on the girl as she opened the door. Natsume was about the same height as the girl but with short brown hair and thinner. She was wearing a black skirt with a green top. Natsume entered into the apartment and walked into the living room.
The girl shut the door and followed Natsume into the living room and sat on the couch. Natsume sat down on the girl’s desk chair and spoke to the girl while she was eating her bagels and drinking her orange juice.
”Hey Yui-chan, sorry for the sudden appearance but I know what happened last night.”
It was slowly making sense to Suzaku about the name of Yui as she was currently in this girl’s body but cannot figure out why though. Maybe that was her mission is to figure out why. She focused back to the conversation or lack of one as Yui has not responded to Natsume since the opening statement.
”Why do you do this? Why do you reject every guy you gone out with? The guy I setup with you last night was perfect for you. I ended up running into him shortly after you walked out of the restaurant. He was quite annoyed that he had to pay the huge bill. Apologize to him today.”
Yui was just eating and drinking her breakfast and did not reply at all. This lack of caring made Natsume slapped her across the face. Yui did not react at all to the slap as she knew that she did deserve that. Natsume began to yell at Yui.
”Baka. Say something. Defend yourself. Don’t you care that I’m angry at you? I just want you to be happy.”
Yui suddenly stood up from the couch and look at Natsume with a stunning gaze.
“Happy? You think that setting me with flavor of the moment will make me happy. They don’t really care about me. They just want to fulfill their own perverted desires.”
“It’s about him, isn’t it? It was always about him. Guess what? He’s never going to come back. If he wanted to stay with you then he would have. Give him up, Yui-chan. He has probably forgotten about you by now. And you should forget about him too.”
Immediately after saying that, Natsume received a forceful slap from Yui that made her fall off the chair.
“Get out, Natsume.”
Yui turned her back on Natsume as she slowly got back right up. Natsume headed for the door and before leaving, she spoke to Yui one more time.
“I’m sorry, Yui-chan. You must have loved him in order to act like this. I don’t want you to mull over him forever. Please move on from him. I really do want you to be happy.”
Natsume left the apartment and shut the door behind her. Yui then immediately went back upstairs and went into the bedroom to look at the mirror. She saw the slap mark on her right cheek and touched it. She could not believe she did not feel anything when Natsume slapped her but now she feels the pain from the slap. Yui fell to both knees and began to cry. She placed both her hands on her face as she cried.
“Dammit! She’s right about everything. But I can’t easily forget about him, Natsume. If only you could understand how I feel about him. Crap. I need to get to school.”
Yui looked at the mirror once again and headed to the bathroom to reapply her makeup. After that, she went downstairs and grabbed her black bag off of her desk. Once the bag’s strap was on her right shoulder, she left the apartment herself and locked the door.
This is so pointless. Why do I have to listen and see this melodrama? How will this pathetic play will able me to find my true self?
Suddenly Suzaku heard a loud booming voice. Suzaku, you must watch and listen to this “melodrama” as you called it. Do you want to be with Phoenix or be stuck as a useless necklace forever? If you understand this, do not question me anymore. There is more that you have to see. That conversation should help you to your desire to be with Phoenix.
After the booming voice went silent, Suzaku was quite annoyed but determined to be back with Phoenix. She resolved to go through this “drama” in order to get back to him as soon as possible.
What Suzaku was about to realize that she has no body to control here but only a watcher. She was feeling like a person who was watching TV about someone’s life through their eyes. This lack of control was annoying to Suzaku as she finds being unable to control her movements quite repulsive. For now, she decided to observe her current surroundings but with no control with the “camera”, she could not get an easy look around.
It appears that the room she was in is a bedroom. Her “carrier” was on a bed just appear to waken up. There was a huge dresser directly in front of the bed. From the source of sunlight to the left of the dresser, Suzaku deduce that there were windows on that side which it was immediately confirm as her viewpoint veered towards the windows. The weather on the other side of the windows was a clear sunny day. There were a bunch of small houses with skyscrapers off in the distance.
For Suzaku, she has never seen a skyscraper as the largest building that she could compare it to was a castle. The bird now fully realized that she was in the other world somehow but with no control of the body that she was currently possessing. The girl walked to a door and opened it to reveal a closet. She proceeded to choose a red t-shirt and lay it on the bed. Then she went to the dresser and pulled out some jeans and underwear. She put them on the bed like the shirt before walking out of the bedroom.
There was a short hallway that had a set of stairs on the right and a door at the end of it. The girl went to the door at the end of the hallway and opened the closed door. The room behind the door was a bathroom which she proceed to take a shower, brush her teeth, did her hair, and makeup before heading back to the bedroom to get dressed. After the girl got dressed, she looked into a mirror. Suzaku finally saw the girl that she has been seeing her perspective from. The girl was about 5’7”, slender build, long dark hair, and with blue eyes.
After looking herself in the mirror for a moment, the girl once again exits the bedroom and walks down the stairs. At the bottom of the stairs, there was a small kitchen on her right and a living room with a TV and a small desk for her computer. The living room also contained the entrance to the girl’s apartment. The girl went into the kitchen and opens the refrigerator. She takes out a carton of orange juice and sets on the counter. Then she opens a cupboard and takes a glass and a plate from it. The girl opens another cupboard and takes out two bagels. She places the bagels into a toaster and pours some orange juice while the toaster is cooking the bagels.
Once the bagels were toasted, the girl placed them on the plate. She carried both the plate and glass of orange juice to the living room where she put them down on a table. The table had a remote on it which she grabbed and sat down on a couch. She was about to turn on the TV when a doorbell rang. The girl put the remote back onto the table and went to the door to answer it. She walked to the door and asks who it was. A soft voice came through the door.
“It’s Natsume.”
Suzaku felt that the girl seems confused by this Natsume girl but could not understand why it has to with her mission. For now, she continued to focus on the girl as she opened the door. Natsume was about the same height as the girl but with short brown hair and thinner. She was wearing a black skirt with a green top. Natsume entered into the apartment and walked into the living room.
The girl shut the door and followed Natsume into the living room and sat on the couch. Natsume sat down on the girl’s desk chair and spoke to the girl while she was eating her bagels and drinking her orange juice.
”Hey Yui-chan, sorry for the sudden appearance but I know what happened last night.”
It was slowly making sense to Suzaku about the name of Yui as she was currently in this girl’s body but cannot figure out why though. Maybe that was her mission is to figure out why. She focused back to the conversation or lack of one as Yui has not responded to Natsume since the opening statement.
”Why do you do this? Why do you reject every guy you gone out with? The guy I setup with you last night was perfect for you. I ended up running into him shortly after you walked out of the restaurant. He was quite annoyed that he had to pay the huge bill. Apologize to him today.”
Yui was just eating and drinking her breakfast and did not reply at all. This lack of caring made Natsume slapped her across the face. Yui did not react at all to the slap as she knew that she did deserve that. Natsume began to yell at Yui.
”Baka. Say something. Defend yourself. Don’t you care that I’m angry at you? I just want you to be happy.”
Yui suddenly stood up from the couch and look at Natsume with a stunning gaze.
“Happy? You think that setting me with flavor of the moment will make me happy. They don’t really care about me. They just want to fulfill their own perverted desires.”
“It’s about him, isn’t it? It was always about him. Guess what? He’s never going to come back. If he wanted to stay with you then he would have. Give him up, Yui-chan. He has probably forgotten about you by now. And you should forget about him too.”
Immediately after saying that, Natsume received a forceful slap from Yui that made her fall off the chair.
“Get out, Natsume.”
Yui turned her back on Natsume as she slowly got back right up. Natsume headed for the door and before leaving, she spoke to Yui one more time.
“I’m sorry, Yui-chan. You must have loved him in order to act like this. I don’t want you to mull over him forever. Please move on from him. I really do want you to be happy.”
Natsume left the apartment and shut the door behind her. Yui then immediately went back upstairs and went into the bedroom to look at the mirror. She saw the slap mark on her right cheek and touched it. She could not believe she did not feel anything when Natsume slapped her but now she feels the pain from the slap. Yui fell to both knees and began to cry. She placed both her hands on her face as she cried.
“Dammit! She’s right about everything. But I can’t easily forget about him, Natsume. If only you could understand how I feel about him. Crap. I need to get to school.”
Yui looked at the mirror once again and headed to the bathroom to reapply her makeup. After that, she went downstairs and grabbed her black bag off of her desk. Once the bag’s strap was on her right shoulder, she left the apartment herself and locked the door.
This is so pointless. Why do I have to listen and see this melodrama? How will this pathetic play will able me to find my true self?
Suddenly Suzaku heard a loud booming voice. Suzaku, you must watch and listen to this “melodrama” as you called it. Do you want to be with Phoenix or be stuck as a useless necklace forever? If you understand this, do not question me anymore. There is more that you have to see. That conversation should help you to your desire to be with Phoenix.
After the booming voice went silent, Suzaku was quite annoyed but determined to be back with Phoenix. She resolved to go through this “drama” in order to get back to him as soon as possible.